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      hmm.. wat happened today.. hmm.. Ashley woke me up coz we had plans with Shin Jiun and Wai Meng for breakfast.. and we went to have breakfast at Klang! bak kuh teh.. omg.. damn long never hav it in the morning weii.. so full~ oh but htis time i went to the one near the river? erhm.. something like that.. lol really nice! we didnt dare to ask for more soup coz our frens got scolding from the owner b4.. aikxx.. but then, when we ordered more rice, then they brought a smmmaaallll bowl of soup for us.. hahaha.. so this is the tips to get more soup? hahaha.. but it is delicious tho.. =)

      wanted to go curve, but Shin Jiun had to renew her ic.. aikx.. so went back.. watched a movie at vern’s place with Ashley and Wai Meng.. altho he wasnt there.. Xs wish he was tho.. watched till it was dinner time! lol went to the Ming Xing again at usj9 [ i think ] oh and Chi Ming joined us too.. =) he slimed down weii.. damn thin, and damn good boy.. and always so quiet~ so hard to make him chat.. but he talked more when it comes to gang fights? i think.. lol i think its more of a guy talk lar.. haha.. with Wai Meng of course.. =P

     after abt 12am on27th, vern’s back! hee.. cant waitt..but how i wish he got back earlier.. aikx.. coz our orientation starts then already.. no more fooling around weii… STUDY!! all the best to everyone! altho none reads this but wat the heck! lol even to those i don really like, really, all the best! =)

      i m freaking bored! and i freaking miss vern.. *sniff sniff.. can say that i didnt see him for almost a week, coz met him 4days ago but just for 15mins.. aikx.. and now, another 3 more days to go! aihh.. tiring.. cant sleep properly, cant eat well either, cause not enough sleep i guess.. no appetite.. =/ the first night that he went philipines was alrite coz i went maison with Jess and someone i cant mention her name.. haih.. got back at 4 slept at 5.. and at least i got a fren to sleep over with me.. the next night, i sent him a msg, and when i was asleep, i dream that he replied me and that he got back from philipines already! so i woke up instantly, and found out it was just a dream when i checked my hp.. aikx.. torturing man.. but i dont mind dreaming that again.. =P

         the third and the continuous nights was terible~ couldnt sleep at all~ aikxx.. for example last night, i tried sleeping at 12.. [usual time for me] and dose of for an hour or so, and couldnt sleep again.. rolled left and right till 4, gave up and went out to watch tv instead.. then, bro got back at about 5 so i had to go back to bed.. =/ so struggled to fall asleep again.. end up i finally fell asleep.. guess wat time i woke up, 11.. ^^" so just lied on my bed for hours.. got up and went back again for hours again.. haha.. =P

        oh and just now my bro made dinner for us.. =P how i wish i was like him.. aikx.. i dont cook~ incase u dont noe.. aikxx.. but my bro does~ not bad.. but freaking full now.. =P anyway, its gud in a way too coz he gave me an idea of wat to do when vern gets back! hee.. hopefully mine doesnt suck~ mom said its easy lar.. =/ hopefully for me too.. aikx.. wish me luck~ haha

                damn sad lar wei these days.. altho she is just a friend to others but she is considered one of my close friend that i feel comfortable with.. and now our friendship is like drifting apart.. i noe some ppl may think it sounds gay but hey.. i really do love my friends alot.. its either i dislike and i dont mix with them at all, or i really love them and treat them like my own siblings.. altho i also hardly talk to my own siblings of the same blood.. so im practically treating my friends even better than my own siblings altho i love my siblings too.. sigh..

               this mood im having now is b’coz of one of my friend.. well obviously u would notice from the above rite? but it really hurts u noe.. when someone u felt close with and had something in common, and suddenly they just avoids u for no reason.. and when we made plans, she just disappears and when u called, she is with someone she dislikes somewhere hanging out together.. wtf? izzit that that person who backstabs is much better or much fun to hang out with instead of me? m i worst than that certain person? if i m.. i really hate myself then.. coz i totally dislike wat that person does.. and i would never wana b like that person..

               people who are reading, which i donnoe whether there are anyone.. if u noe me, do u think i would do something wrong to a friend untill she would wanna avoid me? for those who hates me then dont have to answer my question as i do not need ur opinion abt anything ur SHIT HEADS can think of.. ^^ im friendly if u are.. i will do horrible things only if u do it to me or any of my friends.. i will do wat ever it takes to make u pay.. so beware bitches or bastards.. =) don worrie if u dont noe me.. im fair to everyone.. hee.. omg.. i really hope she doesnt think im gay! aikx.. coz im saying this CLEARLY! i m NOT gay yeahhh.. chill chill.. im straight and have a loving bf.. haha..

          sigh.. but this year i have been saying this qoute that i do not noe where i got it but yeahhh.. if im not wrong, its " the person u love, hurts u the most" ? heard of that? lol i totally agree on that weii.. even a small thing vern did that pisses me, it does hurt alot.. obviously more than the ppl i hate lar.. i don givadamn about wat they do as long as it doesnt affect me lar.. =) do wat ever u want.. just don bother me or my loved ones.. hee.. which is my friends, family and of course bf.. XD

           anyhuuu.. not to say without that friend of mine my world would end.. but i wouldnt wan2 lose a friend like her.. she is really unique in every way.. never met anyone like her.. she is cute, and adorable and funny and blurr.. really adore her.. hee.. okaaayy.. again, i remind u ppl, im not a lesbian nor bisexual!! lol..

          Ignore the title coz i cant think of any title to fit this post im writting now.. ^^" well, for foundation students in TBS, we’re having our second sem break.. which is 2weeks.. hmm.. went to langkawi.. wasn’t that bad, and wasn’t that good either.. i still prefer cherating.. was much more fun plus we noe the place better.. not me lar, those ppl driving.. hee.. well, many things happened at langkawi, arguements and stuff.. i think this i’ll just keep it to myself lar.. but yeah.. mine was the most funniest one.. =P not to say that i love arguing lar k.. lolz well, after the arguement, i actually got drunk.. ><" and started crying and bla bla bla.. omg.. i couldnt remember wat i said or done.. aikx.. feel so awkward coz some ppl that went im not so close with.. and they saw me like that.. aikx.. vern said i sounded like a 3yr-old.. and chris said i could bring down the whole hotel.. haha.. as usual.. =P but if any of those ppl who went, sorrie yeah.. if ur ear drums burst or i changed ur mood over there.. aikx.. feel really bad.. ><

           okay, after langkawi me and vern went to genting as his relative came for a visit.. another awkward situation.. but they were really friendly.. hee.. well, vern fetched me back home and went back up to genting on thursday.. [oh and btw, we went tolangkawi on the saturday.. ^^" ] then only i realised that my mom and bro are going to penang! meaning, my house will be empty! coz dad and sis working and come back quite late.. >< and my mom and bro only come back on sunday! which is today.. aikx.. but luckily i got my licence already.. almost went everywhere i wanted to go.. hee.. well, its also a way to spend my free time.. coz well, someone is at genting~ ^^" so yeah..

           went out with oli and ashley mostly.. wish that grace could make it but she is at aussie! so nice.. hmm.. well, my birthday is coming.. aikx.. but i dont noe wat m i feeling now.. hmm.. i donnoe how will my birthday celebration will turn out.. aikx.. mayb its just becoz i miss vern alot and it makes me think alot.. as usual.. ^^" hee.. quite normal for girls rite? =P

         college is starting after my birthday! oh and b4 my birthday, our results will be out!! omg.. >< damn scared.. hmm.. well, i wish everyone can get thru, and gets all HDs.. =) thats all i guess..

          Goodness.. can anyone remember how long i haven been writting blogs? aikx.. mayb coz i don hav much to complain anymore? haha.. NOT~! lol actually its coz of my bz life these days.. well, then why m i writting it today? hmm.. actually it was bcoz i saw my class mate Eugene, asked me to read his blog, then made me realised that i havent been writting so yeah.. here i m~ lol till now, life has it’s changes.. some are changes for the better of course.. =P

          just got back from genting actually, bf’s so called "home" actually.. wierd huh? actually i wasnt really feeling well but still, haha..luckily exam is over.. lol then, in the end, went up, got even more sick.. put myself into trouble.. ishx.. but i really had a great time with him lar.. =) its worth it! hee.. oh the day b4 we came down, which was saturday, Chris and Roney came to genting to meet us.. and got really drunk.. sadly i couldnt get to see them get drunk and take pics of them vomitting coz "someone" didnt wanna wake me up! swtness.. but gud also lar.. if not i would join them in a vomitting game! lol vern had to ask Gary to come over to help him take care of those two drunk ppl and stayed up till 5 something 6 in the morning..

           got back on sunday, went to 1utama with Olivia.. again, Grace couldnt make it.. =/ but nvm there’s always next time.. altho is like once in a blue moon~ haha.. jk.. omg.. donnoe wat went wrong with her, she couldnt stop laughing.. even i didnt laugh as much as her man.. can u believe that? me? lol got beaten by Olivia Wong man.. haha.. nvm.. oh btw, she isnt related to me altho same surname and may look alike with my old photos or even now? lol aikx.. i m me, she is her man… different lar weii.. swt..

          after that, vern fetched her home, and we went to murni to have dinner.. was great! as usual.. lol =P food there was great too.. thats the end for today~

         kesimpulannya, im still as sick as ever.. lol flu keep making me have tears in my eyes, throat is killing me and always irritated.. aikx.. and tomoro is another new day~ =) like Eugene said in his blog.. haha.. hopefully the next time i write will b soon? aikx.. take care everyone.. and enjoy life! while we still can.. and cherish everyone around u.. i noe these words sound boring and like heard it everywhere, but i don think that anyone of us realised and done it.. yet.. lol even me of course.. trying to tho.. haha..

You’re not sure that you love me

But you’re not sure enough to let me go

Baby it ain’t fair you know

To just keep me hangin’ ’round

You say you don’t wanna hurt me

Don’t want to see my tears

So why are you still standing here

Just watching me drown

[Chorus]

And it’s alright, yeah I’ll be fine

Don’t worry ’bout this heart of mine

Just take your love and hit the road

There’s nothing you can do or say

You’re gonna break my heart anyway

So just leave the pieces when you go

You can drag out the heartache

Baby you can make it quick

Really get it over with

And just let me move on

Don’t concern yourself

With this mess you’ve left for me

I can clean it up, you see

Just as long as you’re gone

[Chorus]

You not making up your mind

Is killing me and wasting time

I need so much more than that

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]

Leave the pieces when you go

Oh, yeah

Leave the pieces when you go

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah,

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Leave the pieces when you go

         argh.. haven been blogging for a long long time.. cant remember how already.. aikx.. really wanna write some crappy things down.. but i just donnoe where to start.. argh.. okay, start with things that are consider a sad thing or something that bothers me.. its already mid feb! and i haven found the right college to register, or even a course i wanna study in! aikx.. other than that, argh.. parents.. mom.. >< sickening.. im the youngest, and im suppose to b the one being pampered the most rite? lol think again.. it isnt that great over this side.. argh..

          okay, i think thats all.. for now i guess.. its chinese new year! YAY! argh.. *sacarstic here.* don really hav any difference with last yr tho.. the oni thing that i’ve done that is different is that i used my own money to get my new year clothings and things i wanna buy! lol.. went back to penang as usual, had my favorite delicious mua chi.. hee.. =) i noe its nothing actually.. i donnoe why but i love it alot.. miss my grandmom from my moms side.. she is the cutest! =D but sadly just saw her once and just for awhile.. aikx.. had steamboat at my dads side.. cant seem to remember wat we did for that 4 days there tho.. nothing much.. came back this afternoon, which is 20th.. argh.. so lifeless.. not forgetting! i havent done my undang yet! omg.. lazie me.. argh.. ><  and i went to Mandy’s blog, and found out that she’s going to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah for her NS! *sigh im going to miss her so much.. well, Emily is back from her NS for her holidays oni, going back on 22nd.. aikz.. and i still dont noe where is Guat Lu going for her NS.. aikz..

       i guess thats all.. after writing these i cant seem to remember the other stuff to write.. lol

happie chinese new year everyone! and get more ang paos! =)

You’re not alone
together we stand
i’ll be by your side
you know i’ll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
’cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i’m here for you, i’m here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through.

      so frigging free now! but lack of money that is the huge problem im going thru now! argh.. sickens me!!! gggrr…

     after spm feels like retired or something… nothing to do! just eat, sleep, watch tv, or infront of the computer! lol or if i hav $*keching*$ then i would b out already!haha..

     today i went to the undang khusus thingy! omg… woke up at 6am! wth… so0O0o not used to it weii.. o_0  val and veron came over at abt 6.45am and waited for mandy to come and fetch us together to the office.. and the khusus were held at damansara uptown.. "so-called-uptown" lar.. ggrrr… b4 going to the khusus thing, the "driver-talk-alot" dropped us off at another office [ donnoe where is that! lol ] then ask us go to the coffee shop there first, coz he had to fetch someone.. lol had dimsum there.. it was okay lar.. we had better ones b4 lar thats all im saying.. and the most disgusting thing was i saw a big fat cockroach ran beside me while i was walking!! eeee! [i did some how squeeked..lol at least i didnt scream like i use to!! =P] then *jump jump jump* and then went mandy and the others.. haha.. XP oh and the indian ppl there followed.. lol

       eeeewwwww… think of it now makes my bulu stand up oni.. fyi, i HATE HATE HATE!  cockroaches! why are they here!! ggrrr… aiyoh.. my nightmare weii… >< can cry if my house has cockroaches running around.. luckily my house is not that dirty till hav those creepy crawly things.. eeee!! ><

      argh… okay.. *happy thoughts happy thoughts* ggrr.. and the khusus thing sucks.. so so boring and uselessss.. [ to me lar.. =P] i slept once! really so nice to sleep.. haha.. altho the seat isnt that nice to sit lar.. but yeah managed to fall asleep.. hee!

      oh theres this blur dude.. omg, so blur.. blur and cute too.. but plsss.. i don like like him okay! and im not hitting on him!! dont think anyother way okay.. =D he damn funny lar.. especially when the driver *who thinks he very funny* said, "oh,no place for u in here arr.. then okay lar.. " [closed the door behind..]  *all looks at that poor boy.. haha.. [damn freaking funny!! u should see! eyes like going to pop out and the face is showing.. huh??? WAT? hahaha… damn funny.. then inthe end he sat infront with other blur boy.. haha.. but that blur boy more quiet lar.. ^^" the whole khusus, the whole time lar.. we were the MOST! noisiest! and i think half of the class were annoyed coz we laughed alot.. and sleep somemore! haha… =P

       oh omg.. i just remembered.. omg…. theres this chinese dude sitting behind us, i think he was sick or something.. and he farted! omg…. his fart no smell lar, so not so bad, but omg, the sound… his fart has a melody~ hahaha..

       gggrr.. we saw the slope we were suppose to drive up and stop on… *sigh it really looks hard ler.. and the guy said that at our test its even higher.. that one we saw was just a piece of cake.. >< die lorrr… manual somemore.. oh yeah, and if we get our "L", then oni take the driving lessons, and they said that we hav to drive from our house to somewhere in kelana jaya! omg……. die lorrr… i not yet go out from my row, engine also dead d… XS  cant it b auto~ ishx ishx… scary wei.. but first things first.. the undang test i also donnoe can pass onot.. the book i also alot can do wrong lerr… die!

         scared scared.. just wanna get my "P"! dear God, i promise i will drive safely and wont forget abt taking my mummy out when i can drive lar okay! plus i love mii mummy so i wouldnt wan2 forget to bring her out! and she is the one who is paying for everything.. =) who doesnt love their mums and dads arr.. i wish u all the best lar.. not worth living if u’re those ppl.. =s but i dont think there are ppl who are that cold hearted lar rite.. if got also, 2/10? haha… but who m i to judge.. its their way they wanna live, so b it.. ^^"

         raymonds at indonesia~ haha.. hope he gets something nice for me.. =P blueks!

           i feel crappy today.. seriously, this feeling is getting out of hand! i seriously hate this kind of feeling, have to keep it all to myself, and even telling my close frens cant help me that much! mayb just for that minute.. but after that, the feeling just comes back.. its seriously irritating.. and i told myself thousands and thousands of times to forget abt all this shit crap and just pay more attention on stuff i should.. but i always disappoint myself by doing the other way around.. i did know that that guy wasnt my type and will leave me with a scar one day, but i was too stupid, too stupid to think that mayb he had changed, mayb he could b the one and all those things girls will think of.. and i couldnt let go of that chance to see and check whether i was right or wrong.. turns out, i was wrong.. he didnt change a bit.. he just fooled around, and when he felt like leaving he just left without even saying gbye or something.. i guess i shouldnt blame him for these stuff happening, its partly my fault.. i put myself into this messy situation.. and i just got to pull myself out and put myself together.. like usual.. i m seriously so sick, so sick and tired of stuff that had happened recently.. not forgetting, im actually having my spm now, and the whole month i was carrying this pain, keeping it in and putting a smile on my face so that ppl around me that cares for me wont worry too much abt me.. i know they care for me, and always find a way to cheer me up, but things like this.. i could only share with my frens and family.. but the pain still lies in me.. so why should i keep talking abt how i feel, and how hurt i m when it doesnt even help altho i said it out? and i may even make the ppl around me feel depress over my situation which i really wouldnt want it to happen..

        my reason of writing this here is to tell my frens that i will b fine and not to worry coz things happen and i just got to get out of this mess myself without pulling u in here with me, to suffer this pain with me.. and to tell those who hurt me before, that i’ve learnt alot of things from u, and to let that certain someone know, that karma happens. believe it or not, even if it doesnt happen to u in this life of urs, God knows wat u’ve done and i believe that theres always a rainbow after the rain.. *well, altho we seldom see any rainbows anymore.. lol* but u get my idea.. so yeah.. this is a emo post! haven been writing like this for a long time! interesting and exciting no?

       but just to let ppl noe, im fine.. still alive, and i do have apart of me is happy and joyful all the time.. thanks to all my frens and my beloved family.. lately luckily i have Valerie,Ashley and Mandy around and beside me, happy ppl… =D happy ppl makes me happy! =D they always manage to make me laugh no matter how depress i was, and put my worries aside.. but another annoying thing that is blocking me from having fun is SPM..

      oh recently i feel really guilty.. =S im really sorry, if u are reading this.. and thanks! but as u can see, im not quite over my depressing stage..

      ps: i’ll b over him soon!^^ im sure the time will b after spm! hahakz! and he will b gone to another place far away! hurray for me! lol